How to Drink Alone

There’s an art to drinking alone. Appreciate its beauty with these tenets of solo drinking.

not a good way to start my day

pagi2 kebangun kaget karna betis kiri tiba2 keram..sakitnya bener2 pain in da ass, untung nyokap lagi di kamar sebelah krn gw terus terang ga bisa nahan sakit n badan ngilu semua kalo udah kena keram betis gini. then....lagi betis kiri dipijat pelan2 ma nyokap sambil gw terkapar lemas tiba2 betis kanan kena keram juga!  krn gw msh lemes dari keram pertama so yg ini gw nangis, nyokap n si mba panik..mba gw panggil bokap gw n bokap tergopoh2lah ke kamar gw..badan gw lemes bgt krn nahan sakit lagi

penderitaan belum berakhir...lagi kedua kaki gw dipijat ma nyokap n mba..tiba2 betis kiri 'naek' lagi alias keram datang lagi..gw udah ga ada tenaga jadi cuma bisa nangis nahan sakit sementara nyokap n mba gw smakin panik..baru selesai kaki kiri dr serangan keram ke-2...betis kanan kena lagi  kalo pas yg ini gw udah teriak2 kesakitan sambil nangis, bokap gw pun panik krn selama ini gw ga pernah kena keram berulang2 kaya gini

finalnya pas bokap gw lagi ikutan mijat betis gw tiba2 betis kanan gw keram lagi.. disini nyokap gw ikutan nangis sambil meluk2 gw yg udah lemeeessss banget, cuma bisa terkapar di tempat tidur krn ga ada tenaga lagi scara udah nahan sakit buat 5 keram dalam sejam..

gw rasa ortu gw stress berat abis kejadian tadi pagi..pas gw mo berangkat ke kantor mereka cuma duduk diam aja di ruang keluarga, bingung mau bawa gw ke dokter apa secara gw udah langganan keram dr SD n this morning was the worse cramps ever..5 times aja geto

sekarang badan lemes banget..emang kalo abis keram betis itu enaknya tidur panjang krn gw selalu ngrasa terkuras habis tenaga gw..especially this morning (sigh..)

my weekend last week started on thursday!! yeeeaaayyy!!! gw iseng cuti dari kamis-senin demi bermalas2an..n soooo:

Thursday Nite: ke senci nonton Sex and the City with ijul, mia, naomi, dewi n ayu..krn gw cuti so gw bertugas beli tiket in advance. abis beli tiket nglipir ke best denki n end up with a lil mini home theater, then krn pada lama datengnya i was forced to do more shopping so added to my shopping cart another one sandal n 2 dresses (Lord...forgive me for i have shopped again...) abis nonton makan bentar doang di food court then off i went home...

Friday: as planned gw ke bengkel buat servis mobil...ga nyangka end up all day di bengkel poll dr jam 10 lewat ampe jam 4... pulang dari bengkel udah jam stg5 lsg buru2 mandi kerna eke mo ke ambas ketemu ma jeng miun...untung msh sempet belenji2 di ambas ahahahahah dari ambas meluncur ke tamani-kemang ketemuan ma ijul, bebta n iting. Naaah...barulah girls' nite out begins!!!..from tamani nyebrang ke TABAC n we had so much FUN there...dari poto2 ga penting, tipsy2 ga penting, di deketin om2 ga penting sampe 'diselamatkan' oleh temen gw..(James & Duncan..thanks a lot for showin' up in time ahahahahah ), dari TABAC pulang n miun decided to drop dead at my house as she couldn't drive anymore

Saturday: woke up at 8.30.. a bit 'jetlag' from last nite tp udah kburu ada janji ma temen di PIM...so siap2 n headed to PIM, stayed there til 1ish-went home-watched DVD-overslept til 6ish n panic cos Beb's bday dinner at 7 and gw baru bangun jam 6an...(ihik..) buru2 bersiap2 n off to Zenbu-Senopati...great dinner! dr sana berkaraokeria di Inul-Melawai til 12ish then lanjut ke Public-Taman Ria ampe jam 3 pagi....nyampe rumah emang dasar banci bersih2 gw keukeuh mandi lengkap pake cuci rambut segala walo sambil tipsy2 ga penting gitu..pheeeeewwww!!!! WHATADAY i had!!!!

Sunday: woke up at around 12 (yaeyalaaaa....) stayed home all day n dozing on&off..sore2 ke senci to meet bebta, chika n ijul..had late lunch/early dinner and juz hang around there til 8ish n went home..

so..yeah, dat's my last week(end) ..habis tenaga, habis uang tp PUAAASSSSSS!!!!

blun sempet upload poto2..maybe tumoro deh skrg mo pulang ada janji di Citos (teteuuup..maen!!)

weekend yg memuaskan tp menguras dompet..  so as planned me & miun went to itc ambas...n we went craaazzyyyy!!! browsin' ambas from 12 til 4.30 hahahahah..then went to senci for a movie

miun yg ga berencana blenji2 ternyata mabok blanja abis2an  pdhal dia cuma mau beli eyeliner doang but instead she ended up with 3 cardigans, 1 gorgeous batik top, 1 pashmina, 1 wedges, and i forgot what else. as for me... i ended up with 1 green cardi, 1 white lil shrug, 1 orange sandal, 1 cute summer dress, 1 cute babydoll black top, 2 tank tops (white n green) wooohoooooooo!!!!!....so much FUUN!!!

monday, after church i went to PS alone to buy some cosmetics for my  mom..then thought to myself might as well browsing around to check out all the SALE in sogo n metro...n it wasn't bad at all, this time the discounts are for real (ga di mark up dulu harga2nya spt sale2 seblumnya) so (agayn) i shopped ..bought myself a vintage lookin' andrew wedges (50% off!!! yesssss!!!) and a cute pale blue sandal...both total under 500,000 (reasonably cheap considering one of them is an 'andrew')

so yeah....what a weekend full of shopping' (sighing happily...) n today me is goin back to PS again to check out undies...might be nice buying one or two sets of undies..hhmmmmmmm...

hhmmm....besok saptu yak!!

rencana ma miun mau ke ambas belenji2, so tom's plans are:

- pagi2 (kalo bangun n kalo rajin) ke bengkel service mobil..kalo ga bangun n kalo ga rajin senin aja dah ke bengkelna

- kalo jadi ke bengkel abis dr bengkel naro mobil di senci (kalo ga ke bengkel yg dari rumah atuh..) trus meluncur ke Plaza Semanggi by teksi ktemu mia disana

- pake mobil mia ke ambasador...lirik2 kiri kanan, belenji2 'dikit'..daftar rencana belanja gw: cardigan/shrug putih, caklet, ijo,ungu, pink/biru  + nice summery dress in green/touch of green + cute 3cm sandals or flip flop or wedges (whatev deh..) + nice semi short pants + maybe a cute purse/bag     

- dari ambas meluncur ke senci karna pengen movie marathon..kungpu fanda (yes..again) + sexndcity (soalna hulk udah janjian ma ijul)

- go home deh...

hmmmm...kira2 bisa melaksanakan semua rencana di atas dgn sukses ato ngga ya?? tunggu hasil reportase-kyu hari senin ya..

so...these are my 2 tattooes....they look perfect together eh?   both placed on my wrists so that i can see them all the time..(gw emang masuk kategori narsis jadi kudu mesti bisa liat tato2 gw dgn jelas..)

a friend asked what's the so-called philosophy of these tattooes?? why did i choose those pictures in da first place...so here goes:

the dove represents hope and peace for those who always put their trust in Lord Jesus..

the cross represents love and faith in Lord Jesus...

mind you...I am not a very religious person  i have my flaws here & there...but by having these tattooes 'inscribed' on my wrists somehow they would be a constant comfort and reminder that my life belong to Jesus and that i should never have to worry about anything in my life because HE understands everything about me, HE knows all my dreams & hopes and HE will take good care of me no matter what just like HE's been taking care of me with love for the past 32 years...and that everything that has happened in my life (the goods and the bads) are all HIS blessings for me. All I have to do is keep on giving thanks to HIM for HIS eternal love for me n try to be a better child in HIS eyes.... (i love you Father...)

anotha great weekend for me

went to bandung on friday nite, bebta picked me up at cititrans pool then we went for a quick shopping at uptown then to prefere 72 to have dinner. Done with the dinner we went back to beb's house n watched footie til 3.30..went to bed at 4ish...hoaaahheeeeemmmm

saturday morning woke up at around 7 n couldn't sleep again altho still very very sleepy  so we took baths and head down to kent's studio. And.......jeeeezz...this time the tattooing process was killin' me...hurt sooooo bad i almost tell Ali (d tattoo guy) to stop cos this time i can't stand da pain...head banging so bad cos of d pain but nevertheless i managed to go thru with it til d end n still got my first tattoo revised later on  apparently due to lack of sleeping my body was still very tired and that affect the whole system of my body mainly the blood circulation and that's why it was a painfull tattoo process not to mention a bloody one  (unlike my first gitu lho....)huhuhuhuhuhuw

from d tattoo studio we went to a salon to have my hair done for the wedding reception that nite, went to the wedding reception..only to congratulate the happy couple then change my clothes n headed to prefere 72 (yesss...again..cos the spaghetti kampyung is just to damn delicious for me) to have dinner with our friends, afterward me, bebta, iting n ijul went to the cellar for a nite cap (read: wine) then went home to beb's

monday morning woke up at around 8, had breakfast a la mba sum (delicious nasi goreng mba sum!!  ) n then took a bath and packed our small bags hehehehe...left beb's house at 11ish n went to bawean for 'oleh2' n quick lunch, went FO tripping then bebta dropped me at cititrans pool. went back to jakarta at 4.30 arrived home at 7.00, had dinner, showered, and off to bed......

great...great weekend....

meet the newest and cutest member in PANE's family...born yesterday June 3rd,2008 @ 13.55pm dgn berat 3.2kg dan panjang 48cm

my cutie lil niece yg blum dikasih nama sama emaknya (kemungkinan namanya Serafine)...so cute oh so cute...ihihihihihi semoga menjadi anak yg sepintar, secerdas, selucu, sebaik kakaknya Samantha.

God bless you always lil one...auntie Merry loves you  

gw ini jarang mimpi n yg pasti kalopun mimpi besok paginya ga akan inget mimpi apa semalem..tapi mimpi yg ini cukup berkesan rupanya krn ampe sekarang masih inget dgn cukup jelas detail2 mimpinya...here goes:

gw lagi di pinggir jalan nunggu taxi mau ke PIM (ini hebat bgt gw masih bisa inget sedetail ini ) trus tiba2 ada mobil berhenti n ternyata mantan pacar jaman SMP dolo bwahahahahaha (no name will be published eheheheh) jadilah gw nebeng dia dan percakapan sbb brkt:

gw : lo kemana? gw nebeng ampe tempat tujuan lo aja

dia : gw ikut kmana lo pergi aja

gw bingung..n krn ini mimpi tiba2 kita bedua udah hang out di suatu cafe ga jelas di Jl.Sunda (padahal gw kan mo ke PIM..hueeee) n di luar rintik2 ujan, trus di meja sebrang itu duduklah temen2 SMP kita bersuit2 ria sambil teriak2..'jadian lagi ni yee...' percakapan sbb brkt:

gw : apaan sih tu anak2, lagian lo kan udah merit..scara gw cuma nebeng doang geto lho..

dia : biarin aja, ga papa kok

gw : makanya..lo cariin cowo dong buat gw biar gw juga cepet nikah

dia : gw ga rela lo sama siapapun juga...

n gw terbangun...masih subuh2 n badan berasa gerah banget (mengingat posisi AC di 18 derajat jd rada aneh gw gerah)

sungguh2 mimpi yg aneh...krn gw udah ga berhubungan lagi ma mantan pacar tersebut since like forever (well..not exactly forever seh tp yg pasti udah lamaaaaa buanget dah) n sejak putus SMA dulu pun masing2 udah bergerilya dlm mencari the next one ...tp emang sih kita kompak banget jaman pacaran dulu hihihihihihi bahkan stelah putus pun dia diem2 selalu keep track siapa2 aja pacar gw hehehehehe

kira2 apa ya arti mimpi gw itu, moso seh dia beneran ga rela gw pacaran ato nikah  scara dia kan juga udah nikah getoloh..walo kalo gw inget2 skarang emang dia pernah bilang ke gw (stelah kita udah lulus kuliah) kalo dari semua pacarnya dia paling ga bisa nglupain gw n paling 'klop' ma gw tapi itu kan jaman lulus kuliah juga..which is akhir 90an...gile aja mantan pacar jaman SMP bisa masuk2 ke mimpi gw hare gene hmmmm...

woohoooy!!....what a great weekend i had!! sabtu jam 7 pagi cabuts ke bandung naek travel, nyampe bandung around 9 (macet di cikampek gara2 ada boil mogog..huwuh) dijemput bebta di poll travel then langsung cabut ke kent studio.

SABTU: finally....got a tattoo on my wrist  udah lama banget pengen punya tato tapi selalu postpone sampai last week akhirnya i decided to have it. So sabtu kemaren terwujudlah keinginan gw untuk punya tato..juz a small cross tattooed on my right wrist  n i absolutely luv it..yeeehaaaaahahahahaha

abis dr kent kita late lunch di sushi tei then go back to bebta's home utk leyeh2 bentar...malem abis makan (thanks mba Sum..what a delicious dinner ) pergi jalan2 sputer Dago (biasaaa...FO heheheh) nyari2 celana tanggung item yg lucu tapi end up beli rok ijo muda instead  then go home n bagusip ma bebta ampe late nite..n popo

MINGGU: bangun pagi krn kita mo gereja dolo, bis gereja pulang lagi n had a brunch (again thanks mucho mba Sum...enak banget masakannya..sluuurrpphhh ) trus beres2 n cabuts ke BTC jalan2 (n shopping opkors) trus mampir lagi ke 'kelom geulis' n bought a cute white kelom  lalu meluncur ke travel n go back home to jakarta deh...

menyenangkan sekali weekend ini..cos i got to do what i've been wanting to have for so long

14.10 pm (meja kerja)

been havin this thought for like months already, losing weights over this n been havin' trouble sleepin' over this...intinya am seriously thinking of quiting my job, don't get me wrong lho..i like d job n everything but since am starting d bag-biz in november (something that i've been wanting to do since forever ) this 'gengges' thought keep visiting my mind.

terkadang kalo lagi wide awake at odd hours at nite..ada rasa nekat 100% yg nyuruh gw utk jump ship n put 100% effort into the bag-biz but during d day logic knocks on & tell me to wait...problem-na: mo nunggu ampe kapan neeeeh??? i'm like 32 y.o already & this thing keeps banging on my head

read in a magz once that intuition is more accurate than logic, n searching deep into my soul i can honestly tell that my intuition is telling me to quit job n start my own 'lil enterprise' (hahahha..!) alas.. what if my intuition is actually wrong???   hadoh...hadoh...hadoh...sementara gw masih banyak kewajiban yg harus diselesaikan n a regular-fix income will help me a lot in settling all my deeds , bisakah daku senekat ituw..uhuhuhu

dilema..oh oh dilema...having this thought since december til now is really a burden even praying is not helping too much (ato emang gw aje kali yeee yg bebal jadi ngrasa ga dapet jawaban dr Tuhan..hix), andaikan Tuhan mau 'berbisik' di telinga gw n telling me what to do that would be awesome!!!

heeeeellllppppp......

darn!!....long hours still await  

betapa mengantuknya di jam2 kek gini, scara lagi sepi kerjaan padahal udah ngantor di 2 tempat tapi kok ya teteuuup sephiy gawean. kadang2 bersyukur juga seh cuma if this happens for days then mati gaya cing!

yaaaah...kalu kata men-temen gw seh 'dinikmati ajalah...' n they're right karna di mana lagikah lo akan merasakan tempat kerja spt ini :

- boss baik abiiiis n jarang ngantor

- full internet ( and i mean full all daaaaay ketauan browsing2 or cek MP juga cuek ajeeeh)

- masuk kerja jam 10(an) & pulang jam 5 (sometimes 5 kurang, rekor pernah disuru pulang jam 3)

- kerjaan santai tapi gaji full

- tadinya sabtu masuk stengah hari tp akhirnya gw minta libur karna gw skrg punya usaha kecil2an getu n boss said 'OK..no problem' bener2 boss yg support thd pengembangan kehidupan pribadi staff

jadi..ga bole mengeluh yaaa...krn i already got d perfect office n d perfect boss (plus boss gw brondong ganteng jd ga sepet mata kalo pas dia dateng )

hooaaahheeeeemm....still 2.30 pm euy (tp romannya seh bakal pulang cepet lagi kaya kmaren...kyaaahahahahahah)

hhmmm...my first blog since i created this account

yesterday morning got an sms from one of my bestgirlfriends; saying that one of our bestfriends back in college years died ...langsung seger n ngantukpun ilang...(sigh) n autopilot mode ON : lsg mandi-the hell with office (bolos)-janjian ketemu di citos-brangkat ke rumah duka di cibubur.

so sad to see his wife n lil girl..gw blum nikah jadi ga bisa ngbayangin gimana rasanya di tinggal pergi sama suami tersayang tapi gw rasa remuk redam saking sedihnya..  sempet liat jenazahnya dikit n then pray for the departing soul (may he rest in peace..)

selesai mengucap doa, cuma termenung sementara temen2 gw yg laen masih baca ayat2 dari Al Quran untuk almarhum, then can't help but reminiscing back to college years, inner circle gw termasuk deket dgn inner circle almarhum as in gank wece2 (halah...gank!) hang out bareng dgn gank woco2..n we had soooo many funny memories as college buddies

kenangan yg paling gw inget sama almarhum ini adalah ketika gw mo pulang ke jakarta on weekend n ktemu dia di jalan :

sauli : mo kmana mer?

gw : baliklah ke jakarta..lo?

sauli : sama..bareng yuk

...di stasiun kereta...

sauli : lo naek ekonomi kan?

gw : maksud lo? gw alergi naek ekonomi soale pd ngrokok, ntar gw bersin2 bo

sauli : yaaah...mahal ekskutif (diem bentar..) lo bayarin gw ekskutif deh..oke?

gw : monyong lo, yawdah gw tambahin ajah ye..

sauli : tersenyum puas..

yg paling gw inget..begitu kita duduk di kereta dia lsg make kacamata item n begaya sok cool kaya artis getu...

gw : nista ih gaya lo..gelo make kacamata item dalem kereta

sauli : ya gw ga mau ada yg mergokin gw lah..lo tau dong fans gw dimana2

gw : mampooowwss.... bwahahahahahahaha

gw ampe ngakak2 ngliatnya, almarhum ini emang penggemar berat kurt cobain jadi gayanya sok2 ng-grunge getu...

 sauli...gw terakhir ktemu lo itu 10 tahun yg lalu pas kita lulus2an di kampus & yesterday when i met you was when death becomes you... so long dear friend...may the good LORD welcome you in HIS hand so that you can rest in peace.